My inbox started to flood with messages as I disclosed the new challenge that unfolded in my life.
I would like to share with you what I have heard from all corners of the world.
“I believe we are powerful. I believe the mind is amazing. And healing can and does happen in ways that transform us. Not always in the ways and time in which we want but in ways that give meaning to things that reveal truths we could have never known. I’ve know great adversity in my life. It’s shaped me, changed me, and freed me.” said a wise colleague to me.”
“Will not pretend to fathom or scratch the surface of insight into your present state; emotional and physical. However practicality dictates waiting to see what the PET and Brain MRI hold. Nonetheless your steadfastness is what’s got you this far and will continue to take you farther.” said a thoughtful friend
“Word elude me. I am crying with you. With how unfair this is. I can’t begin to imagine what you are feeling so I will pray for your strength, courage, peace and faith. Sending you love and support.” an emotional friend wrote.
“Uzma, I hope you can gather strength from all of us and that you will reach out when you need to. And I do hope that when the shock, anguish, and anger have lessened their hold on you that you will write that memoir. In the meantime, do what you need to, cry and scream if you feel like it, and enjoy your children and family.”
“My first reaction as I read ur post…. Shit!!! In the past hour I have a barrage of ” shit” and f%$k” in my head. If you need to let ur Tourette’s loose, you have my number!””
“Uzma, I know we barely know each other, but I have been thinking of you constantly since yesterday, and praying. I’m so sorry. A big hug and lots of prayers”
“Uzma, you amaze me at so many levels. Your strength, your grace and your love. I’m speechless. I will continue to pray for you and your absolutely beautiful family.”
“Hi Uzma !! I am very sorry to read your news and I cannot imagine what you are going through right now ! You can call me to talk or if I can call you? You shall continue to inspire and educate ! We are here with you xxxx”
“Dear Uzma, I have been thinking about you all day and just finally have been able to sit down and write you a note . It been a few months since my “new” diagnosis, I’m still processing it and how I deal changes daily. Somedays are scary, some are sad and others are like living in denial and that is okay because honestly, how else do we get through the day? ”
“Hope you are staying strong and focused. though its okay to have moments of weakness, you are not going to let cancer beat you, even if it kills you. That is your enduring legacy and your identity…..”
“I thought of you because it reminded me of the miracles around us. I think of the impossible chances of that little seed that probably fell into a small crack, for it to grow into this tree and crack this Boulder that weighs thousands of tons. Statistically improbable and nothing short of a miracle. But miracles are all around us. Things people think are impossible can happen and do happen! And with so many people who love you and pray for you everyday a miracle could happen! Stay strong my dear.”
“Dear Uzma, was trying to find words for the last few days to comfort and reassure you. I still have nothing but to let you know that you are in my prayers constantly. You have been amazing through this hard journey. I can’t even imagine what it must be like for you. But remember that you are surrounded by duas and well wishes from everyone.”
“I see you writing a book. For kids. I trust my intuition so wanted to put that out to you as you have the gift to inspire on a big level. Pls know I am your champion.”
“You’re a courageous person and although I don’t have cancer I have been going through medical problems within the last year as well and seeing you post makes me relate to someone. I know it’s hard seeing people get on with their lives and doing things, but always have hope because at the end of the day that is what most of us have only truly have. Feel free to message if you feel down and need anyone to talk. I know there’s an age difference but I’m sure we’ll have plenty to talk about. Stay strong beautiful !”
“Uzma I read your posts you know you are my hero, you express your feelings so well you are very clear in your thought processes you are a very realized person. I am heading towards the end of my life. Every day I experience new pains and witness the diminution in my bodily functions, in spite of healthy living exercise activity etc. This is the reality of life. It has an end. We are born and our souls have acquired this physical existence it moves and hence created illusion of time and so the beginning and end. Some conditions and illnesses accelerate this process and since we are sentient beings and pursuit of knowledge, medical science in this case has literally makes us capable of predicting or seeing in future, it’s but natural that it has emotional repercussions. But my coping mechanism is concentrating on spiritual aspect of life. Life can’t be just this. These events in a way prove that reality is much larger than this and hence perseverance with this mundane process with its uncertainty is the wisdom.”
They continue to pour in. Blessed to have this much wisdom and emotional support available to me.