“So death from cancer is the best, the closest to the death that Buñuel wanted and had. You can say goodbye, reflect on your life, leave last messages, perhaps visit special places for a last time, listen to favorite pieces of music, read loved poems, and prepare, according to your beliefs, to meet your maker or enjoy eternal oblivion.”……Richard Smith ( BMJ blog)
Just like many other survivors , I am also distraught after reading Richard Smith’s blog titled “Dying with cancer as the best death.”
I understand that this is his opinion and he has a choice to express his thoughts. What is wrong is drawing a conclusion about a disease process based on one or two stories that he quoted, sidelining the slow painful deaths that are caused by cancer and the agony of those who love the ones with cancer and seeing them suffer.
When I was young, I also thought that slow death is better than sudden death. I also thought that having the time to say good-byes and to do some of the things from the bucket list would be great. Now that I am in my forties, with two young children, a husband, numerous friends, and patients, I don’t know if I can take a position on my death and how it should be and as a matter of fact anyone’s death.
Death and dying is a very personal experience. Knowing viscerally that you will die after the diagnosis of cancer is the hardest part of accepting cancer. The word “cancer” feels like an engine to which death cars are attached, always. Life with cancer means living in full view of possible death. Thinking about it, worrying about it, accepting it. Death with cancer means prolonged suffering. The psychological suffering that occurs after cancer diagnosis is relentless. Dark thoughts are always around. The physical pain and stupor of death approaching is gruesome, slowly but surely.
Knowing that you have cancer and that too the kind that will kill you in a few months, is not all about reading love poems and traveling. It’s about trying hard to find hope every day to get through from morning to evening despite the heavy weight on the chest. It isn’t just about going to Eiffel tower for one last trip, it is also endless appointments and sad encounters.
He notes “stay away from overambitious oncologists, and let’s stop wasting billions trying to cure cancer, potentially leaving us to die a much more horrible death.”
Most of the time death is horrible. Yes, there is something to be said about letting go gracefully of life when death seems inevitable but living to ripe old age is the way of nature for the majority. That is how we are designed to think.
Letting go of someone in their 80s whatever the cause of death might be is different that letting go of someone in their 30s after dealing and fighting with cancer.
He seems to have no clue about so many that live with the pain of metastatic illness, knowing that death is on its way but the wait is excruciating. Love, morphine and whisky is his recommended path to the bliss of cancer death.
I wish it were a trick that would work for all. It’s hard for a dying person to continue to love life and allow others to love him or her knowing very well that their grief is impending.Many disengage emotionally in face of impending death. Not all medications mix with alcohol and not everyone tolerates morphine.
As a doctor, it is shame that he thinks that he has the ability to decide what “good kind ” of death is.
We , physicians, at the most get a small window into the pain of prolonged death. We write orders, comfort the patient and move on. We know only when explained, what the intensity of bone pain is like.
We can only measure pain and disability on a scale that a patient rates his or herself at.
Pain is also very personal, just like death. Having had cancer, pain scares me more than death. Prolonged painful death with cancer metastasis in the bones or other organs. A state in which pain would make me want to accept the other alternative, death that is.
His take on cancer death is highly irresponsible. May be for an old person in their 70s ,with tons of money and resources and no human attachments, death with cancer may be fairly romantic. That it would come with an increased vigor to live the life that is left, find inspiration and meaning , read love poems and say prolonged good byes.
As a mother of two children, 4 and 7, I am unsure how prolonged my good bye needs to be, ideally for a life time. My children make me want to wake up every morning and fight cancer with all my might. Yes I have more inspiration to live life and am more accepting of my life circumstances but dying from cancer is not my fantasy neither do I feel this privilege having been bestowed upon me as a possibility.
I accept death as inevitable consequence of being born but at the same time I don’t have an opinion on exactly how I want it. Neither should anyone try and convince another about what is the best way to die.
Cancer has been called a blessing and gift by many that find meaning after their diagnosis and now cancer death is the best death. Well, I am apparently in such good position for this kind of death according to Dr. Richard Smith. Thank you for your insight, your flowers should be arriving shortly.